A few days ago, I put an offering out into the world that I feel REALLY excited about. It’s a 13-card Year Ahead Spread for 2017. There is soooo much value packed into the offer, and the energy around it feels really juicy, fun and exciting. I was sure it would sell like hotcakes. I still feel really clear and excited about the energy, despite the fact that it's been three days and I haven't sold one yet. I'm surprised. I think in the past, I would have been like, "Oh, okay! No one cares. No one is interested. You have nothing to offer the world." Or I might be saying, "Well, we tried! That's that!" I would have given up and walked away. And I'm not doing that this time, because the energy around the offer still feels so freaking amazing!
So now what? The good thing about how much more I'm opening up to my gifts to serve others lately is that I'm also opening more and more to using my own gifts to support myself. And that feels so good.
This morning, feeling into what would best serve me in navigating how to move forward, around the offer specifically, it felt good to pull a few cards. The insight I received was so deeply helpful, and I know that it meant not only for me. It's meant for all of us who are putting our work out there, who are not receiving quite the response we desire, and who are deciding whether we are meant to keep moving. And if so, how?
The Path: The Elk. What a freaking regal card. The energy is so gorgeous. Deeply grounded. Strong masculine. Watchful stillness. In the highest vibration available to me in this moment, it’s almost as if the king elk stands on a ledge, surveying his kingdom and elk tribe. Supreme peace and confidence.
When I begin to feel into how this energy is meant to serve me in this moment, around this offer and how I share it in the world…around how this energy is meant to be “the path,” there is such relief to be found.
Totally masculine, yet totally relaxed and gentle. So grounded in the power of the energy that there is no pushing. In a tangible way, it feels like I am being called to embrace my masculine in a way I never have before. To begin putting systems and structures in place that will serve me. To begin tapping into my masculine each day as I commit to sharing this offer for the month of January.
For the past year and a half, I’ve been deeply immersed in the feminine. Eschewing systems, scheduling, and any and all structural “restrictions” to my life. In this card and this moment, there is a shift to be made. With all I’ve learned, how can I shift into that soft, gentle masculine energy? How can I embody my elk nature?
There is a shadow dynamic to be aware of in this as well, which is why I’ve stayed so far away from the masculine for so long. I wasn’t ready to embrace this strong energy in my work life, because I felt afraid of its shadow.
When I feel into the shadow of the elk, those gorgeous, deadly antlers are angled forward, eyes are trained only a few feet ahead, and he's charging ahead at full speed. There's a recklessness here. A reactionary, out-of-focus feeling. It’s clear that this energy is one to watch out for as I start calling the masculine into my work life. The masculine—the “doing”—can run away with you if you let it.
This card is ultimately a reminder that the systems I put in place and the action steps I choose around how to share my work should feel deeply grounded. Firm yet relaxed. Any forward movement should feel supported and open. Anything that feels contrary to this feeling is an invitation to pause. Re-center. Re-ground.
The Obstacle: The Bear. I literally chuckled when I turned this card over. Of course it would be the bear.
This card is all about a big awakening. The end of hibernation. And of course, I’ve just said that I spent the last year and a half avoiding masculine energy in pretty much every way possible. And so, yes. This is the obstacle. Waking to the masculine inside myself may feel like wakening from hibernation. It may be slower than I’d like. I may feel groggy and disoriented. And yet, the bear does not worry that he’ll never be back at his full speed and in his full power. No. The bear takes in the world around him. Stretches his body. Basks in the warmth of the sun. Savors some honey. He goes about the process of awakening without concern around how it will happen. He trusts the natural cycles of life.
All this is to say, it’s not necessary to go from 0 to 60 as I implement masculine energy by putting structures in place in my business. I can trust that if I focus on what is right in front of me each day, the rest happens naturally. When I’m feeling frustrated about the speed I’m moving at, I can remember that it’s part of waking up. Part of embracing an energy I’ve been afraid of in the past. It’s okay to move slow, because in no time, I’ll be carousing around the forest, singing about the bare necessities. Or something like that.
The Outcome: The Spider. This card is so gorgeous, and so much comes through when I feel into it’s energy.
Building a web is a process. And, like the message in the slowness of the bear card, there is an element of looking at what’s immediately in front of you. Seeing the moment for how truly gorgeous it is. Trusting that though you can’t see the full web that’s being built, you’re doing everything you need to build it. There is a strong element here for me around creating structure, which goes back to that masculine energy. One strand at a time, creating the structure I require in my life for my business to thrive. Knowing that I can’t see the full picture from my current vantage point. Trusting anyway. Knowing that a gorgeous web absolutely requires to be created one strand at a time. Letting it be a joy to focus on the one strand, even when I'm not sure how it ties into the larger web of creation surrounding me. Like the spider, I am supported. The web I weave is strong, because it comes from the divine. I am simply a channel for the divine, and in this moment, I'm not meant to see the bigness of what I'm creating.
From a practical standpoint, I realize, maybe this offer isn’t meant to sell like hotcakes. To get ready to put it out into the world, I upgraded my scheduling platform, created a payment system for my business, and reached out to women in my network for support. Maybe those things were the whole point. The question is, can I let that be enough?
This morning, it feels like I can. At the same time, I feel encouraged to keep moving. One movement at a time. One moment at a time. Regardless of whether or not the offer sells, I commit to putting loving energy toward this offering for the month of January. To treat it as the sacred act of creation that it is and trust that I don't need to ground into any truth other than the truth that I am a divine creator and a sacred channel for divine creation.
I’ve already received so much from the experience of putting this offer out into the world, and I’m deeply excited for all that’s to come from this experience.
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The gorgeous cards I've used for this reading are The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit Deck, created so beautifully by Kim Krans. Visit her site.